What an a-hole! This morning (Thursday, New Years Eve)I received a civil summons from my estranged husband. He is bringing me to court for 'permanent custody' of our daughter, Willow, after a 7 year-long relationship of addiction, violence and slavery. How dare him. I have always watched Willow. He drank, I watched her. He worked, always me and her. He slept on the couch after arugments, I lay in the bed with her. I still breast feed her at night. Willow also has a sister, Selena, my oldest who is nine years old. Will a judge allow her to be seperated from her sister? I prayed for years that my husband would get help. Detox, counseling, whatever, will the system take her from me and give her to him. I think not.
When my self-esteem was shattered by him and after my baby brother's suicide in 2007 the only thing I held on to were my children. I know that I have my faults and that I may be a little crazy sometimes, but there are few things that I am damned good at and the first one is being an awesome mother. I guess he will play the Bi-Polar card (an unfortunate thorn in my side) that he always seems to do when arugments arise. I am a new woman after leaving him and I will not be broken by this. God give me the strength. I am an awesome woman and mother. Hear me roar 
